Thursday, March 20, 2008

More Wait, Why?

It is easy at this point in the game to give up, I certainly feel tired enough to stop. But I cannot. Despite disappointment after disappointment I know that there are millions of orphaned children in this world and I know for certain it is God's plan to adopt one of them. I know we are ready and I know my kids are ready, my paperwork is ready, my heart is ready, our finances are almost ready.

Why. Why. not a question more a statement.

If I listened to some I would wait or not do this at all. When is the timing perfect to bring home a child, to birth a child, to get married? Is there some magic day and some perfect child and some just right situation? I don't know. I know that as hard as this is on me there is a child that doesn't have a family.

Am I so bad? Am I doing something so wrong? I have prayed, thought, desired, hoped and longed, paid with my heart, purse and time. Why.

We want to. I cannot stop. Something is bigger than us is in this and despite the circumstances we will bring home a child from Ethiopia. We need this girl and this girl needs us. I don't know if there is a perfect child just right for our family, is there such a thing anyway? I do know that in every child there is a blessing and no perfect fit for anyone, just a lot of kids and one big God to make it work. There is not a perfect time nor is there a perfect family but a family sticks it out through the thick and thin and we are sticking with this.

I don't know how or who or when. I do know why.


  1. Glad to hear it Kim!!!
    Love, Julia

  2. I am not a patient person. I have prayed for patience most of my adult life. With this adoption process, God taught me (somewhat, I'm still working on it) to have patience. Don't give up. God's timing is his own. The enemy is telling you that it's something you have done; that it's somehow your fault. Don't listen to it! I know you are disappointed, but just know that God has a plan for all of us. His plan for your little girl will be shown to you soon. I will keep praying for you.