Wednesday, February 13, 2008


Scripture reference: Galations 6:9

We must not become tired of doing good. We will receive our harvest of eternal life at the right time. We must not give up!

Memory verse
Ephesians 4: 32
And be kind to one another......

Prayer of the Day

Dear Lord help me to remember that is always my job to treath others with kindness and respect. Make the golden rule my rule and make your word my guidebook for the way I treat other people.

I expanded on our daily devotions by showing the kids they are never to young to minister to others. I was having a bad morning and I showed them that no matter how we feel we still come to God. They stopped what they were doing and just hugged me, got water and a pillow and just held me. This type of service went along with our hymn.

"A Beautiful Lfe" I encourage you to read it to your kids. It is on the links on my side bar of this page.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

God's song to Mason 5 years old

Mason recieved a song from the Lord while he was getting a drink of water. He said listen mom this song just popped in my head.

"Oh Lord mighty God I ask that you save me"
"Oh Lord mighty God I ask that you save me"
"you are so heavenly you can do anything"
"you are so powerful Oh Lord mighty God"

One wise and simple man told me not to long ago to pour into your children when they are young, let them hear christan music and the word of God at all times. I haven't always been faithful daily with this but I was convicted a few weeks ago and have made family devotions and hymns the first part of our day. I am seeing the Lord grow stronger in the kids every day that goes by. I am using the bible a lot to correct and seeking Gods wisdom with the small things as well as the big things. I am not saying I am not completely fustrated with them and times and watching their behavior at times I blame myself for not doing a "good" enough job. Of course everytime they make a bad choice I feel I had some part in it, and this is not true. The truth is they are going to make bad choices that is how we all learn. I am going to start blogging daily of our lessons and devotions, you can read the hymns that we are learning to the side.

Sunday, February 10, 2008


Things I am grateful for outside the obvious.

The way my dog brings me a shoe even if I have only stepped out of the house for a minute.
Friends that really care about your life (and can appriciate pulled pork) :)
Watching Nija Warrior and the Dog Whisperer with my husband
Good movies without all the junk that relay a good message (Juno)

I am most grateful for God in our lives
for my family.

I have been given 3 gifts from God and waiting for number four. I am privledged to have given birth to two of them and have experienced the miracle of adoption one time and waiting for number two. I am a blessed lady.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

I am back, kinda.

It has been a hard few weeks. I have been just being. I don't even know if that makes sense.

We met with the Doctors and plans have been set in place for procedures to start immediately. Nurses will monitor better, doctors will be more careful etc. That is all I wanted. Because of what happened to Judah several surgery centers will change how they do things. Good.

It's wierd and I am not sure anyone would understand this but in the end there was nothing bad that came from this.

In fact the fruit and goodness that has erupted because of this will live on forever. The surgery center will change and possibly save other children from a worse fate and most importantly I am closer to my youngest son than ever.

He is mostly back to his normal fiesty self and I am happy. He can hear, he can smell, he is sleeping and there is no more apnea.

You know in a moment like this your faith is tested. There is a verse in the bible that says "do not be afraid of sudden fear" well I can't say I was walking in that wisdom. I was gripped and could barely breath. I felt my vocal cords were squeezed to the point where I couldn't even pray. Why? part of me thinks that if I prayed that would mean that what was happening was real. I know that doesn't make much sense. The first time I felt loosed to pray was in the car on the way to the ER with my friend Tara. She went into the house to get her daughter and I remembered a prayer and a promise I lived on when I was going in for brain surgery. My father prayed and the Lord showed him I was to walk in the land of the living. I prayed that over my son, no I didn't just pray it, I declared it, my voice came back to me and I was able to proclaim my sons life was in my Gods hands and I rembered why my boy was brought to me and what his purpose was so I declared he would walk in the land of living and that he would not be robbed of his life on earth when I know God has a purpose for him.

So here we are today. Recovered and stronger. When you give birth you and your child go through something tramatic and beautiful, when you adopt a child the same thing occurs. I think in my case there was something missing. I often said that it felt as if Gary showed up with this baby out of no where, and I wasn't really sure what it took to take him from his orphanage and home land. I didn't experience this as I was the one holding the candle waiting at home. But when I stepped in for my son God allowed me the experience of taking him as well. I brought him home alive and well. He is such a daddy's boy I often questioned if he viewed me as his mom and just days before this happened horrible thought would suddenly pop into my head like "he doesn't think you are his "real" mom" or " you are not good enough for him you are just a stand in" now we know where these thoughts come from and they are not true so I would just shew them away and try to move on not thinking of them or agreeing with them. When this happened all of those doubts where just demolished. Those thoughts will never ever pop into my head again. I am his mom and he is my baby boy. Those nights in recovery proved it to me so many times, he just wanted me, his breathing even changed when I would hold him and he would calm down. I had an affect on his little body he knows I am his mom and I would do anything for him.

Friday, February 1, 2008

Whoo Hoo! antibiotics

Praise the Lord in all trials,

We are to consider it all joy when we encounter various trials and tribulations.

Well I should be one joyful lady. :) We have Scarlet fever. I caught in quickly and now all three are on antibiotics for different reasons.

Mason for Scartlet Fever
Abby for double lung infection
Judah for after surgery/ overdose.

like I said Whoo hOOO!
I have been trying hard to stay upbeat, Judah is recovering fine so that is one very good thing. He ate "real" food tonight. He slept through the night all last night so we are anticipating a full recovery in the next few days. He is fighting with his brother and sister so he must be feeling well.

We will be meeting with the doctors and staff on Monday to dicuss the situation with the morphine and what happened to Judah. The anthestisiologist called and wants to meet with me in person to discuss things. I was told he is punishing himself and feels very bad. I want to have grace in this situation but I must assure that things will change for other families in the future. Everyone is very proactive and they are starting new procedures all ready in effect. For instance longer monitoring for children after surgery and especially after any dose of Narcan. So things are changing and that is what I wanted. The ENT was very empathatic yesterday with me on the phone and we had a chance to communicate. He is very concerned about this and is asking all the questions I have so I know they are on top of things. I feel they are being very proactive. Anyway I will keep you up to date. I have been out of the loop recently as Judah was struggling with some big time pain, after the big dose of morphine wore off he had few days that were hard on him.