Just 2 days

I am looking forward to being done. I am at the end with this whole thing. I want to think about other things other than my adoption. You have to be careful not to let it swallow you whole. I am trying not to think to far ahead. In part because I can't imagine her here. It is like she is a ghost or a mirage and to actually have her in my arms, at my table, in my lap seems like a dream. Well who knows what will happen, I certainly don't. Is she going to like us? Will it be hard or easy? It just depends.